Hey, I hope you're doing okay and I just want you to know that I love you and I'm sending love your way- that may not help a lot since im stranger but I hope it atleast helps a little :) I know its bad- but hurting yourself is worse, but just know you're beautiful in every way and you are so strong <3 Next time I believe in you that you can stay clean longer, it'll be hard but so so worth it. Also a few options (I don't really know I havent sh'ed before today) are bracelets/bands/hairties - tight ones since I imagine move around a lot or if you have them- arm warmers or gloves that you could say your hands get very cold or theyre just comfy (im sure they wont be that questioning) lmk if these helps in any way <3